Welcome to Friday Five, where I share five things that are on my mind in the hopes of helping you connect to your Mom Flow. Read the bottom of this post for a vulnerable little moment of reflection. Thanks for being here!
P.S: don’t forget to listen to this like a podcast using the article voiceover feature at the top of this post.
💜 All the feelings are ok
Lots of feels this week. I’ve been up and down, which honestly, I don’t see talked about much online these days with the constant barrage of selling all the things. Side note: when did social media become about selling 24-7?! Maybe I’m just more sensitive to it these days? Anywayyyys, my point is that it’s absolutely normal to have days, weeks, months, years of emotional ups and downs and I defo had something building for a few days. Missing my mom, feeling terrible about her situation (she is in a care home with Alzheimer’s) and I defo needed a good cry. Luckily, my sis is always up for a vent sesh and especially since we completely understand my mom and what it’s been like, she was there for those tears. The hard thing about letting myself go there about my mom is that it can often take me out for the day - grief is like that. I have to be careful about going there and doing what I can to compartmentalize that with everything else that happens in life. I’ve learned to get curious about why I feel how I feel which allows me to move through the feelings with more agility. It’s a practice. My best advice is to talk to someone who you feel safe with when you’re feeling down - even when it’s not your first instinct, it can be so therapeutic!
💪🏽 Modelling wellness for our kids
I was on my wellness coaching call (it’s a group call I have every three weeks with a wellness coach I’ve worked with for years) and the topic of the call was movement and how important it is. Not necessarily working out, which definitely is needed, but also the small moments of movement we incorporate into our day (like getting up every 30 minutes while working, puttering around etc.). My mom always did the best she could with what she had and where she was at in life, but outside of a few exceptions, I don’t ever remember seeing her take care of her physical wellness. Something that’s important to me is that Lola sees and knows that I take time out for myself, but most importantly, modelling incorporating fitness into my daily life. She has always known dad goes to the gym, and now that I’ve started, I’ve intentionally started telling her where I am going and what I am doing, then asking Roberto to bring her into the gym (it’s in our building) to show her what I’m doing. It’s more tangible when she sees her mom taking care of herself, and I want to model that for her to understand how important and normal it is to make time for herself.
💃🏽 The bittersweet part of being a mom
I’ve been really struggling with Lola getting older. Motherhood comes with so many emotions, and feelings I never knew existed. The term bittersweet has never held so much meaning as it does when you have a child. There is such a duality to it - I love watching her grow and learn and at the same time, I see time passing so quickly, and that babyhood and toddlerhood slipping through my fingers. Like you can’t believe how much this little person changes month to month. Lola loves seeing videos of herself as a baby and has started asking to watch them pretty much every morning and omgggg Roberto and I secretly brush away the tears! It’s all been such a blur. Although you try to soak in the moments, they are so fleeting that it’s impossible. I wanted to share this post my IG friend Jacquelyn put up… it totally stopped me in my tracks.
🤝 Co-parenting is a trip
You know what no one prepares you for? Co-parenting. I’ve heard people say that raising a child together will show you what your relationship is made of and it very much is true. I’m gonna say it: we’ve had our ups and downs. It’s defo put a magnifying glass on some of my own characteristics and ways of doing things, and it’s most def created some conflict in our relationship at times. It’s also taught me to be a more understanding person, letting go of having the 100% say in the way we do things. We recently had a squabble about introducing a new routine, and this is what happened…
Something we’ve been moving into with Lola is getting her more involved in chores, giving her responsibility of her things like bringing her dishes to the sink, putting clothes in the hamper, unloading the dishwasher, doing the dishes and most recently, making her bed. You might imagine I’m the parent who is reminding hubs about being consistent with getting her in on the chores. Does the term control freak enter your mind? 😏 In other words, I’m the ‘nag’. Look, I know that word has a negative meaning and I don’t like using it, but it’s what I feel like sometimes. I told him that I do not want to end up that way, playing the role of the mom who is always reminding, yelling, forcing my fam to get it done. Most recently, this was about the making of her bed (ahem, we barely make ours these days mind you 👀). Well, to my surprise, the next day after we had that convo (squabble), he had it all done with her, and they are keeping it up! It meant so much to me that he heard me understood why it was so important to me. I can’t help but feel how formative these years are for her and it’s something that’s always top of mind for me. Oh, and communication with your partner about how you’re feeling and what you need is always a good idea.
😍 A few things I bought and love
I want to start doing Easter baskets for Lola and this pillow cover is going to be the perfect bigger item in it! I just love it for her big girl room.
The last thing I need is another pair of New Balance buuuut I’ve been eyeing this style for like over a year and found them in stock so it would have been rude not to.
That’s it for this week. If you like this content, please tap the heart or leave a comment. Vulnerable moment: I was kinda bummed last week to see engagement on the post pretty low and while the opens/views are quite high, I’m going to make some decisions about continuing with Friday Five. It’s hard to put things out into the world that are quite personal to minimal response on the post. I love writing these posts and would love to continue. I can’t say enough how vital your feedback is to me putting things out into the world. Maybe even consider forwarding it to a friend who would love this content? 😍
xx, Erin
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Hi! I wonder if engagement has anything to do with how people access the content? I always read the post directly in the email vs opening the Substack app—so, I’ll be honest, I read and enjoy each Friday but never consider the fact that you could like and comment!
I always love how relatable and authentic you are, Erin. I feel the parenting parallels every. single. day. Being a parent is not for the faint of the heart and I want so badly to be with them forever but I also want to give them space so they can learn THEIR purpose based on what THEY want. It is so easy for us parents to have a "vision" and/or to (with good intentions), steer their children in a way because we think it would be the most beneficial. Personally, we are always trying to balance that as their parents and boy is that a fine balance. I listened to one of Michelle Obama's Podcast today and she spoke about letting children become the individual they ARE and not who we are imposing on them to be. Our job as their parent is to help them find THEIR purpose and to always think bigger and beyond being a wife/husband, or a mom/dad, etc. You showing Lola who YOU ARE is so so good for her to see. I know you've slowed down a bit and have been re-aligning with all the things that are important to you, and it will certainly add to her little brain as it did to yours of your own Mama <3
Side note: I don't even know what the Substack app is. I only see your newsletter here, but I will be sure to reply on here and engage as I know it is so vulnerable to come and share, and could be disheartening when there's no response.
You're a treasure!!